Mini-Update

Completed both The Crimson Room and Blue Chamber. Not easy. Felt kinda dumb afterwards, though. I love puzzle games. I have to hunt down more.

I have played MOTAS all the way through. Well, as far as they have. I'm waiting for more levels. It's fun.

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I've been kinda beating myself up for being a bit of a coward lately. Those psychos I mentioned before? I'm kinda sorta hiding from them. Well, been avoiding one for a long time now. I only just started avoiding the other. But I told the first one that I was done dealing with him, I haven't done that with this other one. That's what makes me feel like a bit of a coward. I'm sure I'll get over it. Just had the shock of my life, though, when he popped on my IM even though I'd blocked him. I panicked and set myself to away. How embarrassing is that? I'm kinda ashamed of that. I should just come out and say that I'm done with him. I'm sure eventually it'll come to that. Baby steps an' all.

It took so long to realize how sick my relationship with him was. And I think I'm mostly mad at myself for always second guessing my instincts. I even found myself sorta defending him to someone else. That's when I started to wonder what the hell was going on. He is yet another in a long, long line of psychos that I've had in my life. In a way, they're all the same person. Self-centered, selfish, immature, and passive-aggressive. Not to say that I'm perfect by any means. I have my own problems and my own baggage. I'm the first to point out my own faults. But these people were emotional vampires. They sucked every bit of joy and caring out of me. And they're so hard to get rid of! They make you feel awful for your feelings of self-preservation. You're just like everyone else, abandoning them. Everyone abandon's them. That's part of the reason why I'm avoiding that one. I've been through all of this before with him. I don't feel like a re-run. I'm kinda hoping that if I avoid him long enough, he'll just forget I exist. Out of sight, out of mind?

Well, I already know he's out of his mind..